Today I am feeling rubbish!
I can't move, I am still numb and my left side of my chest, arm and shoulder is so sore.
I hate this thing that’s stuck inside me, it’s ugly and it hurts. I know it is for the best but at the moment I am really not thinking this!!!
There is blood all over it and makes it look ever nastier than it probably is, but arghhh get it out.
I can't do anything for myself either so feel like a baby. I can't get dressed on my own, move in and out of bed on my own, bend down, put clothes on that have to go over my head so that narrows it down to like two vest tops. So right now I am not feeling the best!
Everyone is been really nice and kind and doing things for me but I hate having to rely on other's to do things that I can normally do. God I hope it starts to get better because I'm not doing this for the next six - eight months, I can tell you that now!!!
