No Chemo!

Sorry I have not left an entry for a few days but I have been unwell.

Well not many of you could have had your fingers crossed very well last week for me because when I went for my chemo last Friday guess what happened? … I wasn’t able to have it again!

This time it wasn’t for my white blood cells it was to do with my bone marrow. When you reach the middle of your treatments your body finds it harder to recover after each chemo and so your count becomes low unless it is given longer to recover before been hit with more chemo or boosted with a special injection. Well you can imagine with my luck which route I had to go down. Yes you guessed right, it was needle time for me, my worst nightmare.

I had been told all about this when I first began my chemo back in February but me been me kept thinking it won’t happen to me and I will be fine, I won’t have to have the big injection, how wrong I was.

When Anita told me the bad news I just burst into tears. I knew I had no other option to have the injection and it would be for the best. It was either that or has to be admitted into hospital because my count was that low, if it had gone any lower then I would have been in trouble. I had my best friend the Emela cream (used many other times I’ve needed a needle) rubbed on the top of my thigh in hope it would numb the area a bit, but did it? No it did not.

I felt the needle go in, but I then screamed and cried so loud as I felt the liquid been squirted into my leg and then I felt the needle coming out my leg. It hurt loads, in fact it hurt more than having my two operations and then having the stitches out after and that is saying something.

The injection is to help boost your bone marrow, it basically forcing your body to produce more as it can’t do it naturally, but there can be side effects and I didn’t half feel them over the weekend. I had really bad pains in my back and legs and at one point I felt like a 90 year old. I couldn’t walk properly or sleep very well and at sometimes I could feel my heart beat, it was throbbing that much. It was just horrible and I thought I want to give up now. I can’t be going through this each week if my counts get low again.

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